Wednesday, May 23, 2007
The Sinseh's a healer and my ankle's a Okay.:D
To Vainest:
(If you'll ever see it, that is.)
Hey, I know words of comfort does not help when things are just going from bad to worse. I know saying "Cheer up" and "NDP's just an event" does not help. Anyone can see you're crazy about it, and that you had put alot of effort into achieving what you had. And everything's going down the drain for you. Since you can't control what's going to happen, why don't you just learn to be strong and take things into your stride? I know it's not easy, but just don't get over-depressed over it okay? You're cool, so keep your cool. And I know you're sitting at the edge, waiting for their reply with little hope, but miracles do happen. So the least you can do now is pray and hope. But I guess when truth slaps you in the face, it hurts, alot.
I won't fully understand how Vainest feel cos I never went through what he had. And I guess when truth sinks in, you feel the pain of losing something. Let's just hope the grey skies will pass eh? I've went through something similar, on a smaller scale. I've never really wanted to talk to my peers or anyone else about it, cos till today, I still feel a tinge of sore-ness? Well, news leaked before they announced the rank and I happily thought I was going to be ACL. However, when they announced the ranks, it happened so quick, I didn't know how to react. Slowly, it sunk in. Slowly, I realised it was time to accept the truth as it is. And even though they promised they would not transfer people in and out of patrols anymore, they transferred Jessie and Nikkita out of Bougain. The first thoughts that came to my mind? "Empty promises!", "Liars" and "How could they?". We had a group hug and we all cried, cos we've bonded somewhere along the way. Somewhere, I met some really good mates. And I really hated them. Firstly, they transferred me out of Jasmine, and I was really attached to it. I was angry, I thought why not Rasyiqah, why me? I didn't exactly like Bougain. But somehow I've grown attached to it, the mates and all. And life goes on huh? I remembered when we were in sec1, Rasyiqah and I once said in camp, we wanted to get the best camper award, and we wanted to be CLs together. I guess it never happened huh? But thanks for the memories. You'll still be my bestf just like when we were sec1s, in Jasmine. When you told me sorry about my lost, I said I was fine, but I guess I didn't feel so fine. And not to mention, I was pretty sore about not being in colour party too. But life ain't easier for you guys too! Haha, looking back, I should blame myself for not being committed enough huh? In terms of activity yes, but attendance maybe not so. The worst mistake I made? Skipping guides and going to Ecp. It was a hell lot of fun, including a wound on my knee. But everything comes with a consequence huh? I guess that's my biggest and only regret. Sometimes, you just feel like giving up, but you'll live, just hold on.
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